多分?...

It's been a long time I didn't access to my blog.. Sorry about that.
It's 18/1/2012... Well, is really patch a good idea?
I can't feel it anymore.. Is it because the way she hurted me is too much?
Hurt isn't it? I got use to it... Last time, I remembered about my ex when 'she' left me due to her family...
I remembered about my ex when 'she' abandoned me due to overgaming.
I remembered everything.... Why every of my girlfriends always play much game and ask me to play with them? I admit I hate playing game much. But sometime it's fine but not 24/7.. I can't really understand what is going on to the world. I can't understand actually. I am waiting for your text message right now. I don't wanna text you because I am waiting you to miss me first. Isn't it good? Or maybe bad? If you don't need me then don't just say love me so much. That will hurt me more. I hate my life. I wanna forget this memories.. I hate it


I don't think I will come back for blogging or others.. I just wanna let her know, 


Not always girl will get hurt... 
Badguy is formed by girl.. Girl hurt them then borned badguy.
Remember it... I am not going to say all guys are good but mostly they are. Thank you for read this post... 

Another sadness mood..

Another sadness day...

Did something wrong... 

I really don't have money to... But why keep like rushing me buy the ring?

I wanted to buy.. I still remember I owe you the 2k Christmas set.

I always remembered... But I really can't do it... 

I am waiting for the money too.

Sorry dear.. I love you

'F'uck 'M'y 'L'ife t(-__-t)

Damn pissed since yesterday. Sick still want play games.. I really don't fucking understand lah! I want you cure fast not game game game game!! Damn, you think I won't boring when you sleep? I keep wait your message but you sleep, because you sick. What I can say? You won it. When I tired, sleep early you say I always sleep no accompany you, really? Oh well! How much I care you know or not? You understand or not? Not everyday this this that that.. I already tired you know..? You think I am robot? You want what I give you.. What I did wrong? Just lazy to play maple? Then you like... Whatever like I care or something... Fuck tat Shit okay I am totally pissed because of it... 

No more! FUCK TO BED RIGHT NOW!

NIGHTS !

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我很無能吧?........

唉....

無聊的雨天過了...

從阿叔家回來了..累累啊在他家= =被人酸到...不耐

回到家了...

本來是想開心的陪她..

結果.............

因為我的偽裝傷害了我自己....

傷心還裝什麼開心啊我?...

唉...好了...也不想多加了...

就到這裡...

你知道我在哭嗎?

今天怎麼了...

一直這樣的保持沉默...

也沒關係...

都那麼冷漠的對待我了...

我要加油...

冷漠吧...也沒關係的...

我覺得只是考驗吧?...

對不起我做不到...

很痛...越來越深...就像以前一樣...冷漠後什麼都沒留下來就不叫人影了...

我上輩子做錯了什麼?

我殺了耶穌是不是?

每次回信都是...沒什麼沒什麼...

我死了妳也沒什麼吧?

我很累了你懂嗎?

也希望你永遠不懂我的痛..

突然很累了...晚安

I hate this feeling..

I don't know is this the right time to blog about my feelings.

Today, I woke up at 6.

Work at 8.

And I realised that... She is still sleeping.. It's should be fine.

I text her late abit. 

I still texted her when I started my work.

Well, I was waiting for her text for.... The whole afternoon.

I never blame her because she always wake late :)

She usually wake at 2.

But too bad... I received her text at 5.50

That time I was on basketball court. Having a pleasant time playing basketball.

But she though... I find other girls?... I don't care her anymore?...

Why everytime this happened?... I did something bad for my entire life?...

Well, it's doesn't matter. Was planning to go to KL next week but I guess she is angry on me and she is in the camp.

Go = nothing too. Can't meet her..

Sigh. I am really tired.. I really wish she understand... 

God, if I did anything wrong in the past of my life, please forgive me and please stop this moment happened on me.

I am human you created.

I desire for everything especially wealth and love.

Please let me go from this sorrow.

I think this is all I can blog with... Take care..

Love You My Dear Joyce.

and Merry Christmas.

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